Sometimes there is a certain sadness that gnaws at me I feel no one else can comprehend. Tears they burn my eyes as I fight it back, my body curls up into a ball in hope to capture any security that may be existent, pandemonium rages in my mind, and my heart.. it winces with every beat. My thoughts they are jumbled up; As quickly as they settle they take flight. My physical state battles against the truth I know all too quickly. The truth I’ve always eluded. The truth I could never quite confide in anyone for fear of being judged. The truth that stabs my heart. Reality is vicious. I wish one day I can find someone that makes me comfortable enough to help me face reality and fill the void that has been - All these years.